Week 4

18.5 miles this week. I don't anticipate my weekly miles to be anymore than that. I pushed myself harder than I should have and now I am paying for it. So I plan to take it a little easier from hear on out. If I keep up this pace I will meet my goal in less than 30 weeks, then what would I do for the last 22? HA HA. I am also pleased to announce I am down 4 pounds, since the beginning of the year.

It is exciting to be able to look beyond the "right now". It has taken me a while to get to that point, but I am finally there. It hasn't always been that way for me. I can recall a conversation I had w/my cousin many years ago (before Robby) when I had just started back to school. I had mentioned that at the rate I was going 'I would be 30 by the time I was done w/school'. Her response to me was.."your going to be 30 anyway" and that I might as well be 30 when finishing school then 30 and no further along than you are now.

Of the many times I have attempted to better my self, i.e. w/exercise and weight loss it always seemed like such a daunting task. It would take me 'this many months 'or 'this many pounds' to achieve what seemed impossible. For some reason that always seemed to be too long, and made my goal seem unattainable.

Some where in the last couple months those words of wisdom resurfaced and seemed to put things into prospective for me. It does occur to me that had I remembered them a year or so ago how much further along I might be...................heck I might be wanting to run that marathon. I don't dwell on it though since worrying about the past only strips tomorrow of it strengths.

For me the time has come to move on. So here I am, moving, and it feels good.